I believe in YOU.

Cause I believe in love,

so I believe in YOU.

I don't think there's another one who loves me like you do,

even though _______ .

I know you're the only and one.

Seriously I hope things are just fine!

I wouldn't want to know what's gonna happen next，

I just want you to be by my side.

Pamper me,

Love me,

And everything!

I know what's in your mind,

but I want you to know that,

she's just caring about you,

please don't worry too much,

we're here with you ♥

I remembered your words,

and you don't know,

it hurts.

I don't even want to know your _____ of ____.

Because I know you'll be here and make it ready for us.

So why? Why did you taught me that?

When I look at your face,

I know you're acting to be strong.

No doubt, you want us no worries.

But it hurts when seeing you like that.

How I wish to go back to my childhood time,

when you hold my hand tight in the crowd.

And now, it's my turn to hold your hand tight!

Every single promise, I'll keep.

Today I learned,

sometimes worry comes around,

and it knocks you down,

just get back up when it knocks you down.

Papa, please don't give up!

We're here with you.

ILY ♥

Rabbit Year !

After so many days & nights,

I'm finally sitting down and updating my blog :)

First of all,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ♥

I wish all of you have a great bunny year ahead!

And people says that the greatest phrase is: 心想事成 .

So here I wish all of you 心想事成 !

During this holiday,

I've met many of my long lost friends,

and most of them with me already ten years' friend,

I'm so grateful that we can hold our friendship until this moment,

though we seldom contact,

we're still close whenever we meet!

And please remember our date after ten years,

hmm, I think that time we already kit fun sang zai ♥

So please bring along YOUR FAMILY :D

And and and, one more date: 每年的初二 ♥

I've got nothing much to update about my holiday,

I'm just really enjoy every moment of this holiday ♥

The perfect picture of us after so many years ♥

DIRECTION

So, I'm finally done with the five subjects,

And now I've had two more to go.

I’m not really sure whether I can pass it all,

But I’d already tried my best,

And the last two papers,

I’m gonna finish you!

And CB,

You made me fed up!

I stayed up all night long and studied,

But what you gave me?

Was all shits!

I think I’m very wrong to rely on the tips,

So I’m gonna deserve for what I’ll get.

Maybe it’s true that when people are feeling stress,

Everything that coming around was just so not right!

And I’m feeling so, indeed.

So what I’m gonna do for the last two papers?

Staying up all night again?

NO! IT IS DEFINITELY NO NO!

I wouldn’t be bother that much,

If I can proceed to then continue,

If cannot then I’ll just stop.

By the way,

I WISH I COULD SEE THE FUTURE! :'(

So, I’m gonna study hard and hard.

No more study smart in this f’kin critical time.

I’m very confusing of what to do next seriously.

Hmm.

And another thing that made me headache was you!

I don’t know the reason why you did that.

And I don’t want to know,

I just don’t want to ask about it even a lil bit,

Because I’m pretty sure that,

Deal with the mess is out of the question,

I mean if it comes around, again.

And maybe you’re just right,

I’m too bad in managing my own EQ.

And yet,

I don’t think there’s one can stand for that.

I don’t mind whatever happened in the past,

I just don’t wanna see it even by now!

Maybe you’ll tell me,

It’s past tense after all,

But you just don’t understand.

I SAID: YOU JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND!

Today,

I wanna do something that quiet and relax to help me feel better.

Maybe what I need is to take a hot bath, or read a book.

That's just fine!

And I'll think of my direction.

I just need a direction badly right now!

For you ♥

Hey my one & only beloved sister:

2011-01-10,

Today is your birthday and the day your result release,

And I’ve got very good news from you,

That you’ve officially graduated from degree!

You’ve been studied your hard & best in these three years,

And what I’m sure of is you’ll feel proud of yourself as well,

And now you’d finally free from all the stress that given by study life,

But it doesn’t mean you’re free from everything,

END is Entirely New Direction!

So, here I wish you can get a great job in your career life.

And thank you for taking care of me,

Since I was born in this world,

You’re always with me,

No matter what & where & when & why!

And I'm sorry for always releases my bad temper on you,

I don’t know why I’m so lucky to have you,

As you indulge me as always.

I don’t have anything much to say,

Because we’re together as one,

And you’ll definitely know what I’m gonna tell,

Even when I’m not uttering a word.

I love you forever DAJIE ♥

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY & CONGRATULATION TO YOU,

YOU'RE NOW OFFICIALLY GRADUATED FROM DEGREE,

I'M PROUD OF YOU,

I MEAN REALLY!"

I LOVE YOU ♥

WITH SMILE ON MY FACE,

HILLARY ♥

New Year 2011 ♥

-20110104-

So first of all,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 & GOODBYE 2010 !

Time passed just like this.

2010 has became past tense,

And for sure the goodbye brought along those bad stuffs.

The New Year Eve,

Went to club with lovely housemates.

And the one whom first not willing at all to give us company,

At last he said yes :)

So six of us went in the club,

We were quiet & not playing/dancing like crazy,

Just the ambiance, we enjoyed.

5,4,3,2,1 – HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 ! ♥

p/s: I wish the happenings in 2010 should have just leave us away &

I wish I will have brand new 2011 with full of love & peace.

With peace,

Hillary.

Beautiful Struggle ♥

They say what goes around comes around.

Is this real?

So what to do next?

They say don't make ones fall for you if you never think to catch him/her.

Couldn't agree in this situation any much longer.

Should have been not in this way.

Things ain't easy.

Mistakes are sometimes what makes life, life.

Who can promise fairy tale will have happy ending?

Fairy tales don't always have happy endings.

So wake yourself up from that.

It's like a mess deep down inside the heart with no a fucking reason.

Ought to refuse to see that, but how?

The mind is driving you crazy!

Struggling hard inside, so what?

So better putting on a fake smile,

for not explaining why you're not happy.

Something must be understood,

that is relationships are all about falling,

either falling in love / just falling apart.

As you know what,

A simple "hello" always ends with a complicated "goodbye".

People guess the reason why the hello always end up hurt,

Is because care & worry too much.

And sometimes people may think,

being in love with someone isn't enough.

And then there comes a disaster while ones is thinking in this way.

*Today I'm with my big smile because I don't even know about tomorrow:)

Yes/No

Well, maybe this is how it goes.

I don't have any much more to say.

I couldn't expect to have that much of things.

I know I shouldn't be that greedy right?

When life put me up for a bad show,

I'll put up a good fight.

They were true,

And I was wrong.

NO, I shouldn't think everyone as me, myself.

No one could be the same.

Even me & him & her & they / just anyone.

When something bad comes around,

I'll often bring myself go the wrong way of solution.

And yes, things shouldn't be solved in that particular way.

A much more polite way or just any other way, perhaps.

You told me must be like a so-called : GIANT.

But how come?

And how would you do that? I wonder.

You told me not to speak even a word when things aren't easy,

So alright, I shut the F up.

You told me don't be like a kid,

Okay, I act like an adult.

You told me so,

But its real, I couldn't do so.

You wouldn't even know why.

Because I'm confusing as well.

*Say yes if it is a yes, no if it is a no.

Don't confuse people, because yes and no ARE different.

It is a - - - -

After so many days & nights.

I'm like finally,

Updating some recent issue.

It was a test from God, wasn’t it?

From stranger to friend,

From friend to good friend,

From good friend to best friend,

From best friend turned to be like stranger,

And the worst part,

From stranger changed to be enemy!

If it’s not a test from God,

Please provide me a reasonable reason to explain.

I accept the mess.

I admit my fault.

After the disaster,

I'm thankful at least I know I need to change.

And at least I know YOU GUYS are care about me & love me.

Thats you, you, you & you :)

Sometimes,

I’ve talked too much.

Sometimes,

I’ve released too much.

Sometimes,

I think I supposed to be blind & dumb & deaf.

If I was blind,

I couldn’t see the faces & myself.

If I was dumb,

I couldn’t even split out a word.

If I was deaf,

I couldn’t hear of anything bad & good.

If I would to choose again about to be _ _ _ _ _ D or not to be,

I will choose NO, NEVER.

At least I'm satisfied, I'm still happy.

How I wish I could have a DELETE button,

To delete somebody,

To delete some memories,

To delete some feelings.

I bet it’s not only me wish to have this button,

Everyone does.

I know everything happens for a reason,

They happen not for nothing,

But they happen to teach you something.

Glad to learn from those happenings!

Yes, I really learned.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ WITH PEACE _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

About Us

A summer day had come and gone away.

Today,

I went to shop with one of my babies!

She is my stupid Christine Baby :')

She came along from her hometown at three something,

And then we went to IPOH at four something,

Because you know girls are always slow. Haha.

Once we reached there,

The very first thing we did was went to eat at JUSCO’s FOOD&TEA,

As you know,

I can't live without foods! :'(

After that we went to sing k at JUSCO’s KBOX,

It was really a century ago since our last sang k!

And I can't even remember when that was!

By the way I still remembered,

Last time we used to sing k at BIG A in KAMPAR,

And two of us were there for six hours!

We were kinda crazy!

Aren't we, baby?

And after then we went to PARADE’s SASA for buying some cosmetics.

I tell you if you buy things again,

Then I will hit your ass! >__<

Although it was only a very short getaway,

I was really enjoyed the time being with her! ♥

For My Christine Baby & Dear MunYee & Beloved Bitch Chuan:

Thank you for being with me all along since I knew you.

You made me understand that BFF is always there for you when hard time.

You support me no matter whatever I do as long as it is a good thing.

You voice up for me when I got bullied.

You accompany me when I need you.

You comfort me when I am sad.

You are always there for me!

Thank you ♥

I never thought we could be closed like how we are today.

And it is so “amazing” that even if we quarrel,

We will still never be apart!

I think this is what people called: Best Friend.

For the mean time,

I am really sorry if I did something wrong.

I hope you guys will give me time to change to be a better girl.

I know I can!

And I believe that you guys will support me right? ♥

Oh My God !

I just realized that our last outing was at 5&6 JANUARY!

It was almost one year we didn’t hang out already!

And these days,

BITCH,

You keep on asking me to pay you guys a visit,

But I really have no time.

But but but,

No worries kay?

I & SimJiFan are managing a time to meet up with you guys.

Must wait for us! ♥

Actually I still have a lot more to update,

But now almost 4:00:00 am already,

I think I got to sleep!

Because I’m damn sleepy you know?

So, good night everyone!

Have a sweet dream :')

**My wish for tonight: Three of you will read what I wrote here.

And if you did, please drop me a message on my chat box there;

It’s on your right hand side, babies! Muacks ♥